Chapter 11

11 The Return When Rosa woke up the next day, she found the cabin door open. Her whole body ached and was against any sort of movement, but Nan was stood out on the shore watching the sun as it rose over the lake. The water was shimmering like it was made of glitter. Rosa threw on her boots and headed out; Nan never did anything before having a warming cup of tea.

第二天罗莎醒来时，发现小屋的门开着。 她全身疼痛，一动也不动，但南站在岸边，看着太阳从湖面上升起。 水闪闪发光，好像是用闪闪发光的东西做成的。 罗莎匆匆穿上靴子，走了出去；在喝一杯热茶之前，南什么都不做。

'Is everything all right?' she asked. 'All things considered, I reckon so!' said Nan, giving Rosa a toothy smile. 'It's a beautiful place, isn't it?' 'It is,' said Rosa, shuffling alongside her. Rosa quickly realised Nan had no boots on. Grandma Nan always wore her boots when leaving the house her feet were too important to damage out in the wilderness. Something was up. 'Where are your shoes, Nan?'

“一切都好吗？”她问。 “从各方面考虑，我认为是这样的！”南说，给了罗莎一个露齿的微笑。 “这是个美丽的地方，不是吗？”“是的，”罗莎说，拖着脚走到她身边。 罗莎很快意识到南没有穿靴子。 南奶奶出门总是穿着她的靴子——她的脚太重要了，不能在荒野里受伤。 发生了什么事。“你的鞋子呢，奶奶？”

'What do you mean?' Nan looked down and realised her toes were dirty and half buried in the dirt and shingle of the shore. 'Well, blow me down,' she said. 'That's not like me.' 'Nan, do you think you're all right?' asked Rosa. Grandma Nan ruffled her thick shock of bed hair. 'I don't really know,' she said, a little confused. 'Things do seem to keep getting away from me. Perhaps I'm just tired.' Rosa knew this was more than tiredness. Getting lost was one thing, but forgetting to do something like putting shoes on? Rosa knew she had to ask a difficult question.

“你是什么意思？”南低头一看，发现自己的脚趾头很脏，一半埋在岸上的泥土和碎石里。 “好吧，把我吹下来吧，”她说。 “那不像我。“奶奶，你觉得你还好吗？”罗莎问。 南奶奶揉了揉她浓密的乱发。 “我真的不知道，”她说，有点困惑。 “事情似乎总是离我越来越远。 也许我只是累了。”罗莎知道这不仅仅是因为疲劳。 迷路是一回事，但忘记穿鞋之类的事情呢？ 罗莎知道她必须问一个棘手的问题。

'Do you think you should see someone about it?' 'What? Like a doctor?' snapped Nan, as if the very thought of it was absurd. 'You try finding a doctor out here.' 'But Tom will be here in a day or two,' said Rosa. 'He could take you to see one in town. You wouldn't be gone long, but it would put your mind at rest.' 'It would put your mind at rest, you mean,' said Nan. 'Is that such a bad thing?' Nan huffed. 'I don't know,' she said grumpily, and she marched off to the cabin. 'Nan!' pleaded Rosa, fearing she'd upset her.

“你觉得你应该找个人谈谈吗？”“什么? 像个医生？南厉声说，似乎这种想法本身就很荒谬。 “你试试在这儿找个医生。“可是汤姆一两天内就要到这儿来了，”罗莎说。 “他可以带你去城里看一个。 你不会离开太久，但这会让你安心。“你的意思是，这会让你安心，”南说。 “这是件坏事吗？”南怒喝道。 “我不知道，”她暴躁地说，然后大步向船舱走去。 “奶奶!”罗莎恳求道，生怕她惹她不高兴。

She followed her and joined her on her bed. Rosa clutched Nan's hand. 'You'd be coming straight back again,' she said. 'It's summer soon, and you wouldn't miss that.' 'That's my fear, I suppose,' said Nan warmly. She wasn't at all angry. She was, in fact, a little scared. 'What if there is something wrong? I feel fine in my body, but my thoughts don't always link up. It's like part of me wanders without my knowing.' 'I think you know you must go, then,' said Rosa gently. Nan gave her granddaughter a big squeeze. 'I know,' she said calmly. 'It's just been so long since I went back to the city. And what about you? You'll be here all alone.'

她跟着她，和她一起躺在床上。 罗莎抓住南的手。“你会马上回来的，”她说。 “马上就是夏天了，你不会错过的。“我想这就是我担心的，”南热情地说。 她一点也不生气。事实上，她有点害怕。 “万一出了什么事怎么办？” 我的身体感觉很好，但我的思想并不总是联系起来。 就像我的一部分在不知不觉中游荡。“那么，我想你知道你必须走了，”罗莎温柔地说。 南紧紧地抱住了她的孙女。 “我知道，”她平静地说。 “我只是很久没回城里了。 你呢？你会一个人待在这里。”