Chapter 36

CHAPTER XXXVI The Glory and the Dream On the morning when the final results of all the examinations were to be posted on the bulletin board at Queen's, Anne and Jane walked down the street together. Jane was smiling and happy; examinations were over and she was comfortably sure she had made a pass at least; further considerations troubled Jane not at all; she had no soaring ambitions and consequently was not affected with the unrest attendant thereon. For we pay a price for everything we get or take in this world; and although ambitions are well worth having, they are not to be cheaply won, but exact their dues of work and self-denial, anxiety and discouragement. Anne was pale and quiet; in ten more minutes she would know who had won the medal and who the Avery. Beyond those ten minutes there did not seem, just then, to be anything worth being called Time.

章 三十六 光荣与梦想 女王学院的公告栏今早要张贴所有考试的最终结果，安妮和简结伴走在街上。 简满面笑容，心情愉悦； 考试已经结束，她笃定自己至少能及格，心里格外踏实； 简完全不会为其他事情烦恼； 她没有高远的志向，自然也就不会被随之而来的不安困扰。 毕竟在这世上，我们得到任何东西都要付出代价； 虽说有志向是件好事，但实现志向从来都不是易事，得付出辛劳、克制自我，还要经历焦虑和失落。 安妮脸色苍白，沉默不语； 再过十分钟，她就能知道奖牌和埃弗里奖学金到底是谁的了。 在那一刻，对她来说，这十分钟之后好像都算不上时间了。

"Of course you'll win one of them anyhow," said Jane, who couldn't understand how the faculty could be so unfair as to order it otherwise. "I have not hope of the Avery," said Anne. "Everybody says Emily Clay will win it. And I'm not going to march up to that bulletin board and look at it before everybody. I haven't the moral courage. I'm going straight to the girls" dressing room. You must read the announcements and then come and tell me, Jane. And I implore you in the name of our old friendship to do it as quickly as possible. If I have failed just say so, without trying to break it gently; and whatever you do DON'T sympathize with me. Promise me this, Jane." Jane promised solemnly; but, as it happened, there was no necessity for such a promise. When they went up the entrance steps of Queen's they found the hall full of boys who were carrying Gilbert Blythe around on their shoulders and yelling at the tops of their voices, "Hurrah for Blythe, Medalist!" For a moment Anne felt one sickening pang of defeat and disappointment. So she had failed and

“不管怎么样，你肯定能拿到其中一个奖的，”简说道，她想不通校方怎么会不公到不给安妮得奖。 “我没指望能拿到埃弗里奖学金，”安妮说。 大家都说埃米莉·克莱会拿到它。 我可没胆子当着所有人的面走到公告栏前看结果。 我连这份精神勇气都没有。 我要直接去女生更衣室。 你去看公告结果，然后过来告诉我，简。 看在我们多年老友情分上，求你一定要快点告诉我。 要是我失败了就直接说，不用想着慢慢安慰我； 还有不管你做什么，千万不要同情我。 答应我这件事，好吗，简。” 简郑重地答应了；不过事出凑巧，这个承诺根本没必要许。 她们走上女王学院的入口台阶，发现大厅里挤满了男生，他们把吉尔伯特·布莱思扛在肩膀上，扯着嗓子大喊：“布莱思万岁，金牌得主万岁！” 那一刻，安妮心头涌起一阵失败带来的作呕的失望。 原来她真的落选了，

Gilbert had won! Well, Matthew would be sorry-he had been so sure she would win. And then! Somebody called out: "Three cheers for Miss Shirley, winner of the Avery!" "Oh, Anne," gasped Jane, as they fled to the girls" dressing room amid hearty cheers. "Oh, Anne I'm so proud! Isn't it splendid?" And then the girls were around them and Anne was the center of a laughing, congratulating group. Her shoulders were thumped and her hands shaken vigorously. She was pushed and pulled and hugged and among it all she managed to whisper to Jane: "Oh, won't Matthew and Marilla be pleased! I must write the news home right away." Commencement was the next important happening. The exercises were held in the big assembly hall of the Academy. Addresses were given, essays read, songs sung, the public award of diplomas, prizes and medals made. Matthew and Marilla were there, with eyes and ears for only one student on the platform-a tall

金牌被吉尔伯特拿走了！ 唉，马修肯定会难过——他之前那么确定我能赢。 可就在这时！ 有人喊道：“为雪莉小姐欢呼，埃弗里奖学金得主！” “天呐，安妮，”简喘着气说，她们在热烈的欢呼声里跑向女生更衣室， “天呐，安妮，我太骄傲了！ 这是不是太棒了？” 接着女孩们都围了过来，安妮被欢笑和祝贺包围着。 大家拍拍她的肩膀，用力和她握手。 大家推推她抱抱她，在乱糟糟的热闹里，安妮好不容易小声对简说：“哦，马修和玛丽拉该多开心呀！ 我得马上写信把这个好消息告诉家里。” 接下来的重要日子就是毕业典礼。 典礼在学院的大礼堂举行。 流程有致辞、优秀论文朗读、唱歌，还有公开颁发文凭、奖品和奖牌。 马修和玛丽拉也来了，他们的眼睛耳朵都只盯着讲台上的一个学生——那个高高高高的

girl in pale green, with faintly flushed cheeks and starry eyes, who read the best essay and was pointed out and whispered about as the Avery winner. "Reckon you're glad we kept her, Marilla?" whispered Matthew, speaking for the first time since he had entered the hall, when Anne had finished her essay. "It's not the first time I've been glad," retorted Marilla. "You do like to rub things in, Matthew Cuthbert." Miss Barry, who was sitting behind them, leaned forward and poked Marilla in the back with her parasol. "Aren't you proud of that Anne-girl? I am," she said. Anne went home to Avonlea with Matthew and Marilla that evening. She had not been home since April and she felt that she could not wait another day. The apple blossoms were out and the world was fresh and young. Diana was at Green Gables to meet her. In her own white room, where Marilla had set a flowering house rose on the

穿淡绿色裙子，脸颊微红，眼睛亮得像星星的女孩，她朗读了最优秀的论文，所有人都指着她悄悄议论，说她就是埃弗里奖学金得主。 “你看咱们留下她是不是太对了，玛丽拉？”安妮读完论文后，马修小声问道，这是他进礼堂后说的第一句话。 “我可不是第一次这么觉得了，”玛丽拉反驳道。 “你就总爱揪着过去的事说我，马修·卡思伯特。” 坐在他们身后的巴里小姐探过身，用阳伞戳了戳玛丽拉的后背。 “你们难道不为这个安妮姑娘骄傲吗？ “我可骄傲了，”她说道。 那天晚上，安妮跟着马修和玛丽拉回阿冯利了。 她从四月之后就没回过家，一分钟都等不及要回家了。 苹果花正盛开，整个世界都清新又充满朝气。 戴安娜已经在绿山墙等着迎接她了。 在她自己那间白色的小房间里，玛丽拉已经在那儿摆了一株正在开花的

window sill, Anne looked about her and drew a long breath of happiness. "Oh, Diana, it's so good to be back again. It's so good to see those pointed firs coming out against the pink sky-and that white orchard and the old Snow Queen. Isn't the breath of the mint delicious? And that tea rose-why, it's a song and a hope and a prayer all in one. And it's GOOD to see you again, Diana!" "I thought you liked that Stella Maynard better than me," said Diana reproachfully. "Josie Pye told me you did. Josie said you were INFATUATED with her." Anne laughed and pelted Diana with the faded "June lilies" of her bouquet. "Stella Maynard is the dearest girl in the world except one and you are that one, Diana," she said. "I love you more than ever-and I've so many things to tell you. But just now I feel as if it were joy enough to sit here and look at you. I'm tired, I think-tired of being studious and ambitious. I mean to spend at least two hours tomorrow lying out in the orchard grass, thinking of absolutely nothing."

窗台边，安妮环顾四周，幸福地长舒了一口气。 “哦，戴安娜，能回到这里真好啊。 能看到那些尖顶冷杉衬着粉色天空，还有那片白花果园和老‘白雪皇后’，太棒了。 薄荷的香气是不是格外清甜呀？ 还有那朵香水月季——哎呀，它简直是一首歌、一个希望、一段祈祷，三者融为一体。 能再见到你真好，戴安娜！” “我还以为你更喜欢斯特拉·梅纳德，胜过喜欢我呢，”戴安娜委屈地说。 “乔西·派就是这么跟我说的。 乔西说你迷上她啦。” 安妮笑了，拿起花束里已经有些蔫了的“六月百合”轻轻撒向戴安娜。 “斯特拉·梅纳德是全世界除了一个人之外最可爱的姑娘，那个人就是你呀，戴安娜，”她说。 我比从前更爱你了——我还有好多话要对你说。 可是现在我觉得，就坐在这里看着你，就已经足够开心了。 我累啦，我想——我厌倦了苦读和追名逐利。 我打算明天至少在果园的草地上躺两个小时，什么都不去想。”

"You've done splendidly, Anne. I suppose you won't be teaching now that you've won the Avery?" "No. I'm going to Redmond in September. Doesn't it seem wonderful? I'll have a brand new stock of ambition laid in by that time after three glorious, golden months of vacation. Jane and Ruby are going to teach. Isn't it splendid to think we all got through even to Moody Spurgeon and Josie Pye?" "The Newbridge trustees have offered Jane their school already," said Diana. "Gilbert Blythe is going to teach, too. He has to. His father can't afford to send him to college next year, after all, so he means to earn his own way through. I expect he'll get the school here if Miss Ames decides to leave." Anne felt a queer little sensation of dismayed surprise. She had not known this; she had expected that Gilbert would be going to Redmond also. What would she do without their inspiring rivalry? Would not work, even at a coeducational college with a real degree in prospect, be rather flat without her friend the enemy?

“你做得太棒了，安妮。 你拿到了埃弗里奖学金，应该不用去教书了吧？” “没错，我九月就要去雷德蒙大学了。 这想想不都很棒吗？ 过完这三个月金灿灿的美好假期，我就能攒足全新的干劲儿啦。 简和露比要去教书了。 想想我们所有人都顺利毕业了，连穆迪·斯珀吉翁和乔西·派都过了，是不是太棒了？” “纽布里奇的校董已经把他们学校的职位给简了，”戴安娜说。 “吉尔伯特·布莱斯也要去教书了。 他没得选，必须去。 毕竟他爸爸今年供不起他上大学，所以他打算自己挣钱攒学费。 如果埃姆斯小姐决定离职，那这个本地学校的职位应该就是他的了。” 安妮心里忽然生出一丝诧异又沮丧的异样感觉。 她之前完全不知道这件事，她本来也以为吉尔伯特会去雷德蒙大学的。 要是少了这个激励人的竞争对手，她可怎么办呀？ 就算是在男女同校的大学里冲正经学位，少了这位亦敌亦友的伙伴，日子不也会变得索然无味吗？