Chapter 15

CHAPTER 15 Monster? The word hit Janie like a kick in the guts. But what did Janie expect? She'd lied. Tricked them all. Of course they hated her. She deserved it, she guessed. She swallowed the lump in her throat and turned to go back to her hiding place, to wait out

第十五章怪物？这句话像踢了她一脚。 但是简妮想要什么呢？ 她撒了谎。骗了他们所有人。 他们当然恨她。她想，这是她活该。 她咽下喉咙里的哽咽，转身回到她的藏身之处，等着出去

the night. But then Miss Wade's voice echoed in her mind. It's not your fault. She'd been talking to Frederick. So why did Janie feel like those words could have been meant for her? A strange feeling—a hot jolt—shot up her spine. "It's not my fault," she said softly. And then louder. "It's not my fault!" "Who's there?" Mr. Bailets called out. But Janie didn't budge. Her mind was swirling. All that had happened to her—losing her parents, living with Aunt Barbara, running from the police, hiding stolen jewels. She didn't choose any of it. She didn't want to be a criminal. She wanted to be the girl she was on the train, the girl who people trusted and cared about. But… wait. Janie's eyes widened as a thought popped into her head. What if that girl was the real janey

深夜。这时韦德小姐的声音在她脑海里回响。 这不是你的错。她一直在和弗雷德里克说话。 那么，为什么珍妮觉得这些话可能是对她说的呢？ 一种奇怪的感觉——一阵热辣辣的震动——刺上了她的脊柱。 “这不是我的错，”她轻声说。 然后再大声点。“这不是我的错！”“谁在那里?”巴莱茨喊道。 但珍妮不为所动。她的心在打转。 这一切都发生在她身上——失去父母，和芭芭拉阿姨住在一起，躲避警察，藏起偷来的珠宝。 这些都不是她选的。 她不想当罪犯。 她想成为火车上的那个女孩，成为人们信任和关心的那个女孩。 但是…等。珍妮的眼睛睁大了，一个想法突然出现在她的脑海里。 如果那女孩是真珍妮呢

And those people… her friends… Could she make them understand? Would they maybe forgive her? Before Janie realized what she was doing, she was rushing through the dining room. She flew past Mr. Bailets. "Janie!" he called. She pushed through the door and out into the rain. Thunder boomed. Lightning slashed the sky. Rain poured down, mixing with the tears that streamed down Janie's cheeks. There they were up ahead—Mr. McBride and Miss Wade. And trailing behind them was Frederick. They were heading back toward the sleeper car. "Wait!" Janie called. "Wait!" Mr. McBride and Miss Wade didn't seem to hear. But Frederick turned. "Janie!" Frederick exclaimed. He ran toward her. "We've been looking everywhere!" Boom! Thunder shook the ground.

那些人，她的朋友，她能让他们理解吗？ 他们会原谅她吗？ 詹妮还没意识到自己在做什么，就匆匆穿过了餐厅。 她从巴莱茨先生身边飞过。 “简妮！"他喊道。她推开门，走到雨中。 雷声蓬勃发展。闪电划破天空。 大雨倾盆而下，和从珍妮脸颊上流下的眼泪混在一起。 他们就在前面。 麦克布莱德和韦德小姐。紧跟在他们后面的是弗雷德里克。 他们正朝卧铺车厢走去。 “等等!”珍妮。“等等!”麦克布莱德先生和韦德小姐似乎没听见。 但是弗雷德里克转过身来。“珍妮!”弗雷德里克喊道。 他朝她跑去。“我们到处都找遍了！”繁荣!雷声震动大地。

"I'm not a monster!" Janie cried. "What?" Frederick said as a bolt of lightning lit up his face. He didn't look angry or disgusted with her. He looked relieved and sad and confused. But then he seemed to realize what Janie was talking about. He grabbed her hand and their eyes locked. "My father wasn't talking about you! He was talking about that evil man, Malvo." In that moment, something deep inside Janie seemed to burst open. All those dark thoughts and feelings she'd been pushing away—the hurts and terrors, the tears, the questions, the memories… she couldn't hold them inside anymore. She heard a strange sound. Whump! Her body shook. The ground trembled. A low roar filled her ears. For a split second, Janie thought it was coming from her, from somewhere deep inside her bones. But no. "What was that?" Frederick said.

“我不是怪物！”珍妮哭了。 “什么?”弗雷德里克说，一道闪电照亮了他的脸。 他看上去既不生气，也不厌恶她。 他看上去如释重负，悲伤而困惑。 但后来他似乎明白了简妮在说什么。 他抓住她的手，他们的目光相遇了。 “我父亲说的不是你！”他在说那个邪恶的人，马尔沃。” 在那一刻，珍妮内心深处的某种东西似乎被打开了。 所有那些她一直在推开的阴暗的想法和感觉——伤害和恐惧、眼泪、问题、回忆……她再也无法把它们藏在心里了。 她听到一种奇怪的声音。 噗噗!她的身体颤抖着。大地颤抖起来。 一声低沉的吼声充满了她的耳朵。 有那么一瞬间，珍妮以为那声音来自她，来自她骨子里的某个地方。 但是没有。“那是什么？”弗雷德里克说。

Janie spun around. She stared up at the mountain, which was brightly lit by a flare of lightning. Except it didn't look like the same mountain. It seemed to have shattered apart. All the snow that had covered it was racing down the steep slope. "It's an avalanche!" Frederick cried. It was moving faster by the second, coming toward them. And toward the trains. "Run!" Janie shouted.

珍妮转过身来。她抬头望着那座被一道闪电照亮的山。 只不过它看起来不像同一座山了。 它似乎已经支离破碎。 覆盖着它的所有的雪都从陡峭的斜坡上滑下来。 “这是雪崩！”弗雷德里克哭了。 第二秒，它移动得更快了，朝他们走来。 向火车走去。“快跑!”珍妮喊道。